In most of my adolescent years, I’ve always struggled with low self-esteem and find immense difficulty loving myself. I’d succumb to peer pressure, conform to societal norms, to so call ‘fit in’. Oh the terrible things I’ve done to harm myself just to look good on the outside was one of the most disgraceful memories of my life. It was to the point that I legitimately wanted to end my life because living was just hell and it doesn’t have to be. During that period, I’ve let so many people down, my family being the worse. In the year 2017, I’ll be 20 (no longer a teenager). It’s time to live for myself.
photo credits: @simplyalphonsine
Awoken by the most disturbing dream ever:
As my family and I got off the plane and landed in safely in Singapore on Tuesday, we decided to have dinner at KFC. Very Very Strangely I ordered the chicken drumsticks those spicy and extra crunchy ones. With my first bite, the tug of war match began in my mind. My mouth was enjoying the crispy and crunchy-ness of the fried chicken, my tongue savouring the taste which I hadn’t had in ages. However, the guilt of eating the flesh of another being just haunted me. Guilty Pleasure. After that ____ meal, the level of moral culpability just broke the scale. I tried purging all of it out of my system because I was just so grossed out by the fact that I just ate my poor friends. But, nothing came out. I then decided to give up on Veganism.
It felt so real. When I woke, I had to recall what exactly I had for dinner last night when I landed in Singapore. Thankfully, my memory didn’t fail me, I ate Dian Xiao Er (Vegan).
In celebration of our 2nd monthsary, I decided to treat Nic to a really special lunch. The concept of Fratini La Trattoria is that there is no menu because everything is customised on the spot. And with every dish served, their awesome servers will introduce the dish’s origin eg. South of Italy etc. The first time I went there was during our usual family dinner on a Saturday. Ever since then, I can never forget that place. The taste and flavours were deeply etched into my memory, just writing about it makes me salivate. If you’re thinking of a really romantic and special date night, this is the place. I went during lunch because it was half the price compared to dinner 😛 It’s best to make a reservation before heading there especially if you have specific dietary needs like me.